There is No Time
Quintana Roo, México
The photographs are thumbnails
Cenote
Azul. Outside of Chetumal. One
of the most beautiful places I think I have ever seen, although
perhaps it is just the magic of the moment.
It is hours after my arrival I am having lunch after much
swimming. They say El Cenote is 92 meters deep around the
edge and at least 150 deep in the middle (it seems no one has
ever gone deep enough to actually measure it). Its elliptical
shape is 200-300 meters across, depending on where one measures.
Simply said, it is a huge shaft in the limestone plate that
makes up much of the Yucatán peninsula, and is filled with
brilliant blue water. It is surrounded by thick jungle (at its
banks the water disappears into the trees) except for an area
cut out for the open-air restaurant where I am sitting. Directly
in front of the restaurant is cement slabbing a few meters
across on the edge of the water. And there is no "shore," no
wading out to the depths; the cenote's
walls are sheer and go straight down.
I swam out into the middle of the water and
dove down. Opening my eyes into its unfathomable depths (it is fresh water),
I saw nothing but a very bright, royal blue color. Impossible to gauge
distance away from the cenote's edge, it was like
finding oneself in a room without any light: that sense of
disorientation; of being in an abyss. Upon surfacing, I
collided with an old
memory. In the mid 70's I was at a friend's house on Bay Street in
Santa Monica, California. One night he and his roommate had some nitrous
oxide and were using it for amusement. I had never tried it and was curious. The first time I inhaled the gas,
I held my breath, sat back in a chair and closed my eyes.
In seconds a vision flashed into focus. The energy in my body flew up
very quickly through the top of my head and out of the room;
up and up through a brilliant, star-filled night sky. Then everything
changed, and I was coming from the depths to the surface of a body of
water. When my eyes cleared the surface of this water, I found
myself in a lagoon surrounded by jungle. The sun was shining and I
was completely alone. I was laughing and a voice said, "Welcome home." There
were no signs of civilization - just the lagoon and tropical vegetation in
brilliant late morning sun.
Today, when I swam
out into the
middle of the cenote, I
dove
many times into that Blue World. On one of those
dives I turned and swam the meters back to the surface of the water.
Suddenly, the crash of recognition blew hard and fast from some far alcove
of recollection and stunned like an electrical jolt - shocking in it's
intensity. It was exactly like the
vision from years ago. There was no voice
this time as I looked at the jungle surrounding the cenote,
but
the sudden and unexpected memory (I hadn't thought of that visionary moment
in decades) shook me uncontrollably with giddy laughter. I told
myself it was impossible, yet another side of me kept saying, "SHHH.
This is it." And the more I stayed there, I knew I had seen
this before. As to how or why, I don't care. This is it. It is a fantastic
place and I am still trembling. At times, life is a strange and beautiful
waking dream when it brings us these
astonishing experiences. Back in Santa Monica I
knew nothing of the Yucatán, let alone a cenote. It is amazing and
magical. It is awesome and glorious. It is the All.
* * *
After
a beer and a large plate of ceviche made from shrimp, octopus, conch
and several other types of fish, I walked to the water's edge to say my
good-byes. The color is so strange - it is an almost milky bright, royal
blue, but very clear. Fish can be seen swimming many meters down and there
is a whiteness that is fascinating. It is probably the reflection of light
from the cenote's limestone walls. This was the first day I had been
without my camera since I arrived in México this time. It had looked as if
it were going to rain (late last night in Chetumal there was a
wind-and-deluge of tropical downpour), and also I didn't know how safe it
would be to leave the camera while I swam, so I left it at the hotel. As it
turned out, there weren't any postcards in the restaurant or
its tiny gift counter. When I told my waiter about
the experience and how important it was to have a picture, he said it is
magic and that the dream I had so long ago is still mine alone. A moving
thing to be told. Basking in the energy of this natural beauty, I took my
last look, said my prayers and thank-yous and walked out to the highway.
Perhaps there is a post card in town. If not,
well, olvida lo. Here in the Yucatán one learns not to become anxious
over the outcome of events. We'll see...
* * *
Rev
it up. Here we go. Akumal is an insulated, sophisticated, American-style
get-away on the Caribbean coast a few hours north of Chetumal. The staff
rakes the beach in the morning, picks up leaves that fall in the night on
the small areas of grass between the bungalows, and are cloyingly attentive.
I haven't heard a word of Spanish from the clients. Mostly I talk to Rafael
and the staff. The breeze flows hot Mexican across the water and the cash
flows cold, hard American. It feels like Cancún in that someone had a great
idea to give tourists (mostly North American) with money a place to sun and
swim and forget their troubles, but not their amenities. There is such a
dichotomy between here and the Yucatán that I love. I keep thinking these
people should get to know México (I think the whole of the United States
should get to know her southern neighbor better), but then who am I to
insist on this? The only tourists I don't care for are the ones who are
rude. Generally, those here in the resort are pleasant enough; they are just
exclusive, as North America always seems to have been. The Statue of Liberty
says, "Give me your tired, your poor..." but has insisted that once embraced
by what Miss Liberty represents, those tired (who usually are not) and poor
(who may not be) assimilate to such a degree that, within a few generations,
most of the old ways are lost. We are left with a naiveté to outside
experience and ignorance of other peoples.
* * *
Rafael
is an artist who carves Mayan symbols in limestone. His works are
reproductions of the glyphs found at Palenque. They are delicate, finely
done, beautiful. He seems to know much of the myths and realities of the
ruins. He uses many different hand-made knives, depending on the type of
work being done. We spoke at length over the course of a couple of days. He
is originally from Vera Cruz and has spent time in many places in México,
Belize and Guatemala. Our conversation took on a life of its own, revolving
around parapsychology and metaphysics. When I told him of my experience in
Cenote Azul, he was not at all surprised at the story and said he believes
in the power of the premonition. I replied that I still did not understand
how I could have "seen" the cenote the first time so many years ago.
Rafael looked at me and smiled, saying, "You know, there
is no time." Here was a young Mayan man with no
formal education telling me simply and clearly what Einstein espoused to the
world through his theory of relativity. In that very still moment Rafael
made perfect sense. Then he spoke of keeping the mind and heart clear and
clean so these mediations may be possible. I told him that I love being on
the Yucatán coast because not only is the exercise good, but the water is
electric. He laughed and said, yes, yes, yes. Here in the middle of American
prices, money and language, there is another bit of the Mystery. I am
grateful for it.
Just a short while ago a woman looked at
Rafael's carvings and said, "How cute!" Thank goodness the artisan
understands almost no English. Tomorrow I think I will buy one, at $25.00
US. They're extraordinary. It will be the only real present to myself, other
than this trip itself.
* * *
I
did buy one of Rafael's pieces. It's exquisite; something to look at,
something to touch: a Mayan profile carved on the surface of a thick
limestone tile, with a sitting bird as the back of the head, all done in
high relief. He gave me a discount, which I know was a token of his
friendship. I wanted to support his artistry, and on a deeper level I wanted
to take a piece of the Mystery with me back to the United States. It is a
talisman of a journey I have dreamt of for a long time. It is the other side
of my vision from years ago. The magic and mystery in the Yucatán is deep,
ancient, alive. It breathes in the jungle, in the ruins; it breathes in the
blood of the people. It is timeless.
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